Age ain't nothin' but a number.

 

I gotta say, I think my family has some good genes. Both of my parents are a few years over 50 & they look GREAT! Dad is still mostly dark haired & definitely young faced, & even though Mom is almost all silver, she has the best hairstyle & still has a beautiful young face as well. So I decided to post some old to new pics. From left to right, I am 14, 18, 21, & now 25.

I gotta admit, sometimes I think about getting older & it kinda freaks me out. Right now, I'm finally living on my own in another state, but, I don't have a job (hopefully soon! *fingers crossed*), am waiting on that big 'career break', I'm not even near having any sort of romantic relationship, & of course nowhere near being a mother. I never really talk about wanting a boyfriend, but when I do it's mainly 'pshh, I don't care about guys right now' or 'eh, I'm completely content on my own. No drama!'. Though the above statements are mostly true, I have to admit that I sometimes do feel the biological clock ticking. Not in a 'Ah, my bones hurt & I can't get out of bed' kind of way, but I guess bc I always thought I'd be married & have at least one kid by the time I turned 30. As weird as it sounds, I kinda take some comfort in seeing alot of Hollywood women becoming 1st time moms in their mid to late 30's (even though I still don't want that to be me).

Right now, I honestly can't say that I see my future as a wife & mother at all. That's how out of reach it feels. I do think about it almost every day, & though I'd never say it out loud, alot of times I really wish I had someone to share my life with right now, even though theres not much going on in it right now. haha.

It probably sounds stupid, but looking at the above photos, & as embarrassing as a couple of them are, I am content with my age progression. In 11 years, I grew into my youth, & out of it, & am now a young adult that I feel is finally out of her 'awkward' stage. It took me awhile to be almost 100% comfortable w/ myself (on the outside that is), even though I still have insecurities. What's even better is I don't think I've aged much in the last 4 years, probably in part to having not much stress & no long term relationship of any kind! lol

As you can tell though, I've almost always had the same type of hairstyle, not very varied at all. I had "nightmare bangs" for a long time, as you can see from the 1st pic, & finally grew them out senior year (2nd pic). Those bangs & part of my insecurity was how much I hated my hair. I could never do anything w/ it. Cutting my bangs in Nov (last pic) for the 1st time in 7 years was really scary, & hard bc I remembered how they used to be. But I wanted to do something 'daring', something different, that took me out of my comfort zone, & I have to say I'm really glad I did it. As outgoing as I am, sometimes, of course depending on what it is, I have a really hard time getting out of my comfort zone. Another insecurity, I always want to do everything right, but how are you gonna experience something unless you do something "uncomfortable" right? (like moving to Texas, scary! but I don't regret it. =D)

So, in the end, I'm glad I still look young, glad I still am young, glad I'm "daring" & I am content and willing to be single until God brings me the right man to spend my life with. Now I just have to have patience & hope that if that man comes along when I'm 35, that I still look exactly the same as I do now!! LOL!

Love & youthfulness,

Steff