Lifetime Grammy dream.

Ok, so I'm watching the Grammy Red Carpet right now & am once again, as I do year after year, dreaming that I were there as a nominee or really, just there period.

So I have posted my red carpet "fierce" pose that someday I'll hopefully get to flash for the cams. LOL

I remember yearssss ago that I always wanted to make it to the Grammy's by the 50th anniversary. Well, this year is the 52nd anniversary so clearly I missed my deadline lol, so maybe I'll dream now for the.... hmm, 55th? lol I'll only be 28, thats not too bad, right?

Soooo, this posting is short & sweet. Didn't really have much to say tonight I guess! Kay, so I'm gonna go back to watching the Grammy's & my cute sleeping kitty cat. Chau!

Steff

Age ain't nothin' but a number.

 

I gotta say, I think my family has some good genes. Both of my parents are a few years over 50 & they look GREAT! Dad is still mostly dark haired & definitely young faced, & even though Mom is almost all silver, she has the best hairstyle & still has a beautiful young face as well. So I decided to post some old to new pics. From left to right, I am 14, 18, 21, & now 25.

I gotta admit, sometimes I think about getting older & it kinda freaks me out. Right now, I'm finally living on my own in another state, but, I don't have a job (hopefully soon! *fingers crossed*), am waiting on that big 'career break', I'm not even near having any sort of romantic relationship, & of course nowhere near being a mother. I never really talk about wanting a boyfriend, but when I do it's mainly 'pshh, I don't care about guys right now' or 'eh, I'm completely content on my own. No drama!'. Though the above statements are mostly true, I have to admit that I sometimes do feel the biological clock ticking. Not in a 'Ah, my bones hurt & I can't get out of bed' kind of way, but I guess bc I always thought I'd be married & have at least one kid by the time I turned 30. As weird as it sounds, I kinda take some comfort in seeing alot of Hollywood women becoming 1st time moms in their mid to late 30's (even though I still don't want that to be me).

Right now, I honestly can't say that I see my future as a wife & mother at all. That's how out of reach it feels. I do think about it almost every day, & though I'd never say it out loud, alot of times I really wish I had someone to share my life with right now, even though theres not much going on in it right now. haha.

It probably sounds stupid, but looking at the above photos, & as embarrassing as a couple of them are, I am content with my age progression. In 11 years, I grew into my youth, & out of it, & am now a young adult that I feel is finally out of her 'awkward' stage. It took me awhile to be almost 100% comfortable w/ myself (on the outside that is), even though I still have insecurities. What's even better is I don't think I've aged much in the last 4 years, probably in part to having not much stress & no long term relationship of any kind! lol

As you can tell though, I've almost always had the same type of hairstyle, not very varied at all. I had "nightmare bangs" for a long time, as you can see from the 1st pic, & finally grew them out senior year (2nd pic). Those bangs & part of my insecurity was how much I hated my hair. I could never do anything w/ it. Cutting my bangs in Nov (last pic) for the 1st time in 7 years was really scary, & hard bc I remembered how they used to be. But I wanted to do something 'daring', something different, that took me out of my comfort zone, & I have to say I'm really glad I did it. As outgoing as I am, sometimes, of course depending on what it is, I have a really hard time getting out of my comfort zone. Another insecurity, I always want to do everything right, but how are you gonna experience something unless you do something "uncomfortable" right? (like moving to Texas, scary! but I don't regret it. =D)

So, in the end, I'm glad I still look young, glad I still am young, glad I'm "daring" & I am content and willing to be single until God brings me the right man to spend my life with. Now I just have to have patience & hope that if that man comes along when I'm 35, that I still look exactly the same as I do now!! LOL!

Love & youthfulness,

Steff

Confessions of a Single Girl...In Austin, TX.

So my friend said the other day that I should start a blog about my experience being single & the crazy things guys say to get your attention. Well, since I don't go out much, I definitely don't have enough material for a whole blog. But I told her if something happened, I'd write a blog posting about it. Here you go!

The only thing is, I have no story about any "witty" things some guy might have come up w/ to talk to me. Instead, even if I DID want to date, I will tell you how seemingly IMPOSSIBLE it would be to even find a guy here in Austin. Honestly, all the guys here are either gay, or taken. I'm not even kidding. I have absolutely no problem w/ gays, don't get me wrong, but it's probably a good thing that I really don't want to date bc there are no options! Then the guys that MAY be straight are wallflowers, the guys that would stand in a row against the walls at prom not having enough guts to talk to a girl they may want to dance with. haha

I guess it didn't help last night that I looked like an amazon, w/ 4 inch heels that made me about 6'2. hahah. And I guess it doesn't help that even though I do look around for good looking guys, that I probably give off the impression that I don't care about getting w/ any of them, so they don't try. I guess what throws me off is that guys in Tampa would have NO problem w/ me being a foot taller, showing zero interest, acting like a b*tch & turning my back on them when they try to hit on me. HAH.

You know what? Now that I think about it, God bless Austin. I don't have to deal with jerkwads every time I go out. lol YAY! <3

wow. End of the most random blog ever.
Steff

Just a little about me...

For the one person that follows me (THX ALLIE!) & whoever stumbles across my bloggity-blog, here are some things that you may or may not know about me. =)

I loveeee me some music: oldies (especially fond of Elvis, Neil Diamond & some good ole' Motown), pop (yes, you saw that clearly), danceable hip-hop, some rock, & stuff thats just fun to sing. Oh how I miss the chorus days & 4-5 part choir harmonies. Those were the days. There really is nothing like singing w/ others, awesome melodies, tight harmonies, & belting out your strongest notes.

On another note, I feel that finally, at 25 years old, I'm finally expanding my wardrobe past just jeans, graphic tees & flip-flops. While these are still my love, I got some soft, pretty v-necks & scoop necks for christmas. Found some really cheap shirts recently that are so pretty & flowy, & now proudly own 3 pairs of boots, one of which I wore to the mall today (note: will only wear when I'm NOT pacing the mall, ouch!) w/ a pair of skinny jeans, said soft v-neck & a cute black cardigan. I felt cute!

Which leads me to the above, super glittery booties. OMG I wish I were a pop star! I could totally rock these & nobody would think anything of it! lol
Which leads me back too... writing songs. I wrote a few back in high school, & a couple every now and then, they'd run around in my head until I wrote them down, but this was never really a common occurance.
Well last week, I wrote two, in two days! Woot! Usually my songs are emotion inspired, I'm not an emotional person, I really only cry when I get mad (unless I move out of state, I boohooed like a baby the morning I left!), so most of my emotion goes to my songs. The 1st was one of those. I've been wanting to try to write a poppy kinda song for awhile, but didn't really know how to write a brainless song (you know, no emotion to speak of lol). Well, I finally wrote one! A tune kept rolling around inside my head w/ a catchy pop chorus, & I couldn't sleep till I wrote it down, so I got up & the whole song came out! I must say, I feel kinda stupid for writing a pop song, again, bc it feels kinda pointless, but its supposed to be fun right? & thats kinda whats selling these days.

Now, I gotta find a buyer, or a record company that will sign ME to sing them... lol.

Hey! A girl can dream! <3

ttfn ta ta for now!
Steff

Finally!

I guess it's finally time to start blogging again. I had a Xanga back in '05, but I haven't used that thing in YEARSS. I always have these random things that pop up in my head everyday, or things that I do, see, or try (Soy Milk! YUMMY!) that I want to share sometimes, whether people care or not. haha. Guess you wouldn't read my blog if you didn't care, right? Right. =D

So, I finally decided to start this thing when I looked in the mirror after I got out of the shower & was farely pleased with what I saw. Clear skin, nicely shaped eyebrows (if I do say so!) & overall, I don't see a kid in the mirror anymore. At 25, I'm finally past the everyday horrible, self-conscience breakouts I use to have, & have finally tamed the crazy caterpillars of eyebrows I use to have. THANK GOD!

So, I thought I'd share some of my current (& seems to be working!) skincare regime with you! Mainly you fellow ladies, of course!
Before bathing, I use a sugar scrub on my arms & back (since they tend to get more dry then other bodyparts in cold weather & a house heater!).
After bathing (& washing my face), I use Philosophys Microdelivery Exfoliating Wash on my face & neck, which is amazing, smooths your skin so well especially, again, in the cold weather. After that I use just a plain Walmart brand acne cleanser that seems to work really well.
I know it may sound like overkill, but I've been doing this for about a month now & have noticed a HUGE change! I go out in public without any makeup on all the time now! (not that I really wore much anyways, but it covered any flaws I saw.)

So there you go! My 1st blog along with my little skincare tips. Now, off to pour a glass of Vanilla Soy Milk <3<3<3 & read a book.

Night!
Steff